Just heard the news that Jiaqi Guo has passed away, after fighting with leukemia bravely for almost a year. Life is so short when you look back at the exit. Yet she left us a beautiful story, about a girl fighting with death, so defiantly, so undauntedly, that it just make the ending so sad.

I’ve always believed in that we’ve been familiar with lies and big talks in everyday life that a little truthful piece of thinking can be very moving. And indeed so. May her rest in peace.

Her last words:

我很遗憾，我不能坚持下去了，我尽力了，朋友们尽力了，家人都已尽力了，我最后的愿望。

第一个愿望，最放不下的当然还是父母了，我希望他们在我去的时候能过上轻松愉悦的生活，还上那些人情债，我希望他们晚年幸福安康。

第二个愿望，是洗个澡，这个愿望是死后妈妈来完成了，因为肺部感染已不能洗澡了。

第三个愿望，把我写的童话故事出版，已写了一半，我相信幼幼会帮我完成的。

其他的希望是祝愿大家幸福安康，如果真的有灵，我会保佑大家的，保佑我的家人朋友们，保佑天下善良的人。如果有机会我能表达我的愿望，我相信你们都能理解我的，我相信它们都会一一实现的。

2009年10月8日凌晨

国家琪口述，妈妈执笔

Just two weeks away from the 60th Anniversary of the establishment of his motherland, for which he had such a deep love, indeed, the love impelled him going back to China right after he finished his postdoc research here at Northwestern University, to accept a starting faculty position at Zhejiang University, to persuade his wife rejecting the faculty position she got in the US to go back with him lest the family be split up and their 3-years old child can only see one of the parents, Dr Tu jumped off the top of the building in which he lived, and terminated his promising research career.

Our last encounter was almost half a year ago, one or two month before his departure for China. At that time, I was impressed by his smile that was always on his face and his politeness. And we chatted for a little while, as both of us are alumni from Tsinghua University, the conversation was very easy-going and a little bit nostalgic.

We say requiescat in pace to him, and hope him find peace in Heaven.

回想起在北京呆的几年，掐指算来，午夜时仍在街头游荡的日子并不算多。想来倒是上高中的时候半夜出来通宵上网的次数要多一些。印象最为深刻的莫过于凌晨三时许，漫步街头，沿街店铺全部门窗紧闭，然后月光如洗，倾泻在柏油路面上。或有凉风戏动墙角旮旯的断烂报章，成为寂静环境里唯一的响动。那时或多或少算是体味了一些忙里偷闲，众人皆睡我独醒的闲情。但忽忽地便到了北京。

到北京之后，人地生疏，刚开始的岁月总是过得那样慢慢悠悠的。课业占据了大部分时间。忽而到了圣诞节，有罗K兄提议上网吧庆祝这个老外的传统佳节。响应者推上自行车一起从紫荆园侧列队出师。不过果然是出师未捷，这伙受过高等教育的帅小伙子们漫漫寻网吧而不得。一路在狭窄的自行车道里列队骑行，有一句每一句地自嘲这圣诞夜欲通宵上网而不得的奇遇。现在回想起来，倒是别有一番滋味。不过其间说的话，走的路已经全不记得。

后来折腾了总得有一两个钟头，在回学校的路上，眼瞅校门就在跟前了，居然发现路旁赫然是一家通宵达旦生意红火的网吧。后来的事已没多少印象，记得最清楚的倒是为了锁自行车颇费了一番功夫。三两成群，一定要和别人的车锁在一起才多少觉得安稳。似乎当时我只能把自己的自行车锁在最外面，虽然和张Y还是小罗的车锁在一起，但总还是觉得在外侧显眼招贼，让我颇有些悬心。进了网吧，要看身份证，大家都亮了学生证表示一下。这么一大班子来自于五道口技术学院的帅小伙子们齐集来到这个无名小网吧通宵，实在是让店主高兴了一把，想来真是觉得蓬荜生辉吧。

后来大家玩CS，算是岩色和李ZY比较出色。我多半是早早毙命然后换视角看别人怎么死。记得竟有一次失手把高手岩色给灭了，岩兄无法自已，大呼：“我竟然给PS给灭了！！！”。向来对游戏不是太感冒的我竟然颇有一些高兴，算是发现这个玩意竟是如此有意思。

后来不知怎的出了网吧，发现自行车全都在，真是高兴了一把。大伙乘兴回巢，一大清早见到人总是那么高兴，被别人误会成勤学上进，清早就起来在校园里驰骋的感觉总是不错的。后来如何真是彻底忘了。丁兄似乎是坚持要吃完一碗泡面才肯睡，认为要保持健康的生活习惯。我也忘了自己吃没吃，上铺倒头睡了。